love completely

Just for today.

2009-05-06T02:10:00Z

I've got my 30 days coming up on the 11th, and I've been the happiest I've ever been, completely drug-free. No alcohol, no drugs, nothing. I've got the most amazing sober friends in the world and I've got the love of my life. I wish I did this a long time ago. The people I've got now have been 1000x more supportive than anyone I've ever met, and that's an amazing feeling. I'm happy. :]

hmmm

2009-03-09T02:20:34Z

People really do change. I hate reading livejournal anymore because it just makes me sick.

I feel bad for you.

But I've given up long ago, and I'm ready to better myself and be happy with the one person who hasn't left me yet. I deserve this. I'm pretty much done with this thing considering no one on here is my friend. You don't hang out with me or call me, the only two are Tori and Alexa.
Pce out LJ.

lsidhgklidxhg

2008-11-29T20:59:33Z

I hate females.

xxsmai @ 2008-10-11T10:18:00

2008-10-11T14:18:15Z

FUCK.

love life!

2008-10-06T17:45:23Z

Burrell homers twice as Phils eliminate Brewers to advance to NLCS against Dodgers

By SUSAN LULGJURAJ

Published: Monday, October 06, 2008

The Philadelphia Phillies celebrate
after ninth-inning baseball action
in Game 4 of the National League
division series
Sunday, Oct. 5, 2008, in Milwaukee.
The Phillies won the game 6-2
to advance to the National League
championship series
against the Los Angeles Dodgers.

MILWAUKEE - Dallas Green embraced Pat Burrell in a bear hug.

Green, the only manager to bring a World Series trophy to Philadelphia, and Burrell, the prodigal son who finally burst onto the postseason scene, hugged in the middle of the visiting clubhouse at Miller Park with champagne and tears lingering in the air.

"Thank you, my man," said a teary-eyed Green, now a Phillies front-office advisor, in Burrell's ear. "I've been waiting for that."

Burrell hit two homers in his three-hit performance in Game 4 of the National League Division Series, propelling the Phillies to a 6-2 win over the Milwaukee Brewers in front of 49,934.

The Phillies won a postseason series for the first time since 1993 and will advance to the NL Championship Series against the Los Angeles Dodgers. The best-of-seven NLCS begins at Citizens Bank Park on Thursday at 8:15 p.m.

Burrell, the longest-tenured Phillie, has been criticized much of his career and hadn't hit through the first three games of the series. But harsh words were nowhere to be found afterward as Burrell soaked in the scene.

He watched his teammates flitter around the clubhouse, shaking bottles of champagne and dousing unsuspecting victims - all of whom welcomed the baths.

The coaches stood in the corner, arms around each others' shoulders, reveling in how far the team had come.

And then there was Burrell, standing in front of his locker with beer in hand, and never a bigger smile.

"I didn't feel like I had done that badly. I hadn't gotten any hits, but I knew if I kept working at it, kept grinding it out good things would happen," Burrell said. "Fortunately, it happened at the right time. I couldn't be happier."

Across the plastic-covered locker room was Jimmy Rollins with swimming goggles on to avoid the sting of champagne. He and Burrell have been with the Phillies the longest, having gone through tough seasons such as 2000, when Philadelphia lost 97 games.

While neither were the rowdiest or loudest during the celebration, they were enjoying it more than any other.

Jayson Werth and Pedro Feliz dumped two bottles of champagne over Rollins' head. The shortstop lifted his arms and let the champagne pour over his body.

"I think this is step one of erasing the history of all the wrong doings that happened here," Rollins said. "I told (former manager) Larry Bowa the Vet was the house that he built and across the street is going to be the house we build."

Rollins and Burrell, who both came up in 2000, had never reached the postseason until last year, when Philadelphia got in on the last day of the regular season.

Even then, it went by too quickly, with three straight losses to the Colorado Rockies.

A few years ago, it would have been hard to imagine just what this situation would feel like. The Atlanta Braves were the dominant team in the NL East and Philadelphia never had a shot.

"As a player back then, you didn't know if it would happen, but you kept trying," Burrell said. "Unfortunately it took a while to get here. It makes it all sweeter now that we are here."

For Burrell, the best part was being able to finally help his team.

He hadn't hit this postseason. And last year against Colorado in the NLDS, he was just 2-for-11. Burrell felt his breakout coming, and Rollins knew it would happen.

"He told me, 'They have been pitching around the big guy (Ryan Howard). I am just going to get them today. I feel good. My back's all right. I worked some things out in the cage,' " said Rollins, who led off the game with a home run. "That's only the second time he has ever told me that he is going to do something."

In Burrell's second at-bat, his prediction came true. Shane Victorino doubled and the Brewers intentionally walked Howard.

Burrell came up and took Jeff Suppan's 2-2 pitch over the right-field wall.

"In that situation when they pitch around the big guy, the pressure is on," Burrell said. "That's the situation you want to be in as a player. The goal there is just to try to get something to hit."

For a long time, the Phillies had to hear about the 1980 team, the only World Series-winning team in franchise history. Even though Philadelphia is still four wins away from even making the World Series, the comparisons have begun again.

However, there is one way to end that - eight more wins.

Then "People will talk about this team," Rollins said. "We get to 103 wins this year. That's the magic number."

YES!

2008-09-28T19:25:25Z

Phillies repeat as NL East champions

Rollins' acrobatic play helps Lidge nail down division title

By Ken Mandel / MLB.com

PHILADELPHIA -- With Pat Burrell's sacrifice fly in the fourth inning, scoring Chase Utley with run No. 1, the crowd stirred. When Carlos Ruiz lofted another sac fly to right three batters later for run No. 2, the buzz grew louder. Jayson Werth's homer in the fifth produced a noticeable crescendo.

But when shortstop Jimmy Rollins made a dazzling diving stop on a rocket struck by the Nationals' Ryan Zimmerman, flipped to Utley from his knees, then watched the game-ending double play to its completion, the crowd and the players just lost it.

"Nothing's been easy, so why not have a game like that?" said closer Brad Lidge, who worked his way into that jam before closing out Saturday's 4-3 victory over the Nationals. "I'll take it."

With Lidge's 41st save in the books, the celebratory pile began at the mound and shifted to the spot near where Rollins gloved the season and wrapped it a complex bow. The Phillies' second straight National League East title -- their first back-to-back division championships since taking three in a row in 1976-78 -- didn't come easy.

Still, they're going to the playoffs.

Again.

"It's surreal and like it's happening in slow motion, so you take it all in," reliever Chad Durbin said. "You think about how it started and you're happy it got to this point. The atmosphere is amazing."

The Phillies emptied what seemed like a non-stop supply of Domaine St. Michelle champagne, supported by cases of beer. Players sprayed in all directions, but always found whoever happened to be on television at the time.

Seeking maximum soaking effect, bottles were often poured directly on the head.

"We shouldn't use it all here," said one player. "Hopefully they'll be three more of these."

They can think about that next week. Saturday wasn't for looking ahead. The jubilation spilled out of the home clubhouse and onto the field, where players addressed the crowd that refused to leave, then sprayed anyone who wanted it.

Chris Coste and Pedro Feliz rode around the park on police bicycles, and Ryan Howard and Werth puttered around on a grounds-crew cart, yelling all the way.

"Now we've got a job to do. We have higher goals this year. We've been here before and we know what we have to do. In Spring Training, we were sitting around talking about going to the World Series, not just getting to the playoffs."

-- Jayson Werth

No one cared that it was raining.

"It feels like it's raining champagne," said Geoff Jenkins, who was ranked fourth among active players not see a postseason game but was able to cross his name off that list. "I can't wait."

Before the game, Rollins grooved while singing along with Rick James' "Superfreak." Later, the lyrics "Celebrate good times" piped through large speakers. A few hours later, the 45,177 fans at Citizens Bank joined the party.

Since the Mets declined to comply by winning earlier in the day, the Phillies needed a win to seal the division. They gave the ball to Jamie Moyer for Game 161. Moyer, the oldest player in baseball, worked last-season's division-clinching game, when the season went down to the final day.

White rally towels waved furiously as the game continued, punctuating the playoff atmosphere. Moyer worked six innings, then let the bullpen do the rest.

"Amazing," pitching coach Rich Dubee said, regarding Moyer. "What else is there to say?"

Moyer experienced deja vu.

"I enjoyed it," Moyer said. "How odd is it to get the same team? It's worked out for us two years in a row."

Moyer became the second pitcher to win 16 games at age 45, joining the Yankees' Phil Niekro (16-8 in 1984). In the 2008 clincher, Moyer held the Nationals to just one run over six innings.

The night before, he played catch with his youngest son, McCabe Joseph. The kid said the catch was required so daddy could "have good throws."

For the second straight season, the Phillies chased down the Mets in the NL East. The Phils trailed by a season-high 3 1/2 games on Sept. 11, but rallied to claim first place for good on Sept. 20. In its best month, Philadelphia went 16-8 with one game remaining.

Ryan Howard carried the month, and delivered a key rally-starting single in the fourth. Batting .345 with 11 homers and 32 RBIs for the month, Howard heard "M-V-P" chants each time he stepped to the plate.

As they await either the Dodgers or Brewers in the NL Division Series, which begins Wednesday at Citizens Bank Park, the Phillies pondered the fact that they don't want to see their postseason run end after three games, like it did last year in Colorado.

A more experienced group this year -- evidenced by the fact that most players donned goggles for the 2008 celebration -- the team knows they have plenty more to do.

"We all have a little experience at this," Rollins said. "We can hopefully go a little further into the playoffs. We know winning the division doesn't guarantee you anything. It just means you have a chance to go win the World Series."

Added Werth: "Now we've got a job to do. We have higher goals this year. We've been here before and we know what we have to do. In Spring Training, we were sitting around talking about going to the World Series, not just getting to the playoffs."

The Phillies wouldn't have gotten there without September, not without the determination to not care about being 3 1/2 games behind the Mets and four behind Milwaukee in the Wild Card earlier this month.

A sweep against the Brewers set them in the right direction.

"I've been thinking about this for the last week," Rollins said. "Determination beats out talent, but if you put them together, you have one heck of a champion. I might write that on the mirror and let everybody know what I've been thinking. We have a chance to do something special. Hopefully we can."

ugh

2008-06-27T21:36:46Z

I feel like I'm at a crossroads with too many roads to choose from and I'm just lost.

ugh

2008-06-25T17:21:09Z

I'm just not good enough.

Friends Only.

2007-10-15T21:18:07Z

I'm only adding people on my own, so don't bother commenting to be added.